A long road back
The Silver Mullet was a country-western bar owned by legendary
country music singer, songwriter and producer Carl Evans. The
Mullet had flourished in the five years since he bought it, after
retiring from country music.
Carl was behind the counter, while servers got the bar ready to
be opened. He was a tall man, in his early sixties. His face was
leathery and worn. He wiped the counter down with a towel. Carl
looked over his shoulder at the numerous accolades that lined
the wall behind the bar. Carl had received almost every award
offered in country music. A small smile came onto his face. Then
he turned back to the bar and looked at a faded picture under
the counter. He looked at a picture of him, taken about ten years
earlier, embracing a smiling women, who was about his same age.
He frowned at the framed memory. He turned back toward the trophies
on the wall and glared with contempt.
Across the way he saw that tonight's band was making its way into
the bar. This band looked the same as hundreds that he had seen
file into his bar over the last five years. They were a bunch
of kids with instruments, he thought. He saw a rough looking young
man bringing up the rear of the posse. He was tall, with dark
hair and eyes. He had a sturdy build and a familiar swagger to
his walk. "That has to be David," Carl told himself.
He had personally talked with David and setup the gig because
Sara was off work sick. David Moore was a spark plug. He knew
what he wanted. Carl felt sorry for him as he thought back on
his own situation.
Carl was just like David once, a long time ago. He was full of
wind, and the world was his to conquer. Carl had raised Hell and
made music with the best of them in the sixties. He blazed a trail
of country hits, and rose to the top of country music, before
becoming a very successful producer. Some of the biggest acts
in country music today had Carl's guidance to thank. But it all
came at a price.
Carl met Angel while he was at the top of his career as a performer.
The two fell in love and married. His marriage was a big part
of his decision to leave the road behind and begin producing other
bands. What he learned was that the other side of country music
was no less hectic. The hours were long for a producer, especially
a good one. His time at home became less and less, the more successful
he became.
Now, all Carl has to show for a twenty-five year marriage was
a tattered picture, and a huge void in his heart. He gave up country
music all together, in an effort to save his dying marriage. But
Angel would not come back.
"You can't quit, Carl. It's in your blood. It doesn't matter
if it is singing, writing or whatever. You can't quit on music."
"Your wrong Angel, baby," Carl began, pleading. "I
can, and I have. I'm done. I called Capitol this morning and quit.
I cancelled all of my appointments to come here."
Carl remembers that conversation well. One of the appointments
he had that day was with a young man named Garth Troyal Brooks.
He lost a lot that day.
"I don't believe you, Carl. I can't believe you. You don't
know what it's like to lay around the house, all day and night
wondering if and when you were coming home. You can never love
me that way I need you to, Carl. I'm going back to North Carolina.
Don't come lookin' for me. I am filing for divorce on Monday."
He did get divorced, and he did quit. In one day he lost all that
he had. His name was still important in some circles, but the
man behind it was just a shell. People would come in sometimes
and talk about old times. Carl would just nod and smile. He didn't
care anymore.
David's band setup and played a really mean set. The sound was
fresh and well played. David seemed to have a way of captivating
people when he was on stage. He was raw, and green, but good.
After the band was done and all of the patrons had gone home,
David cornered Carl.
"Mr. Evans, thank you for letting us play."
"Thanks you, David. Everybody had a good time, nobody got
hurt, and you guys did a good job." Carl didn't want to pump
David up too much. "Who have you guys signed on with?"
"Nobody. Not yet anyway. We've seen a lot of closed doors.
Actually, I know you are retired, but I thought I could trouble
you for some advice."
Carl felt his chest tighten. He had turned down such offers a
dozen times over the last five years. But something about the
look on David's face made Carl hesitate to turn him aside. David
had a look of exhausted desperation. Some guys would knock on
a few doors, get a little rejection, and come asking for help.
Carl decided to qualify David. Chances were that he would find
out that David hadn't gotten enough no's to expect a yes.
"Yeah, I got a minute. Let's sit down." The two men
pulled chairs off of a nearby table and sat down.
"How many people have you talked to David?" Carl asked.
David mentally does a tally. "Thirty three, but that is counting
some people twice."
"Thirty three?" Carl thought. This kid must doing something
wrong, Carl thought.
"That's a lot, kid. Who are you talking to?"
"Mr. Evans, sir, I have been to every label in the book.
I have sent demos and makes calls until I am at my wits end."
"You don't have a manager?" Carl asked.
"No sir, I can't afford one. I can't pay my boys what they
are worth if I invest in a manager. I have some really good musicians,
and I would like to keep them."
The picture was becoming clearer now. For all of his talent on
stage, he seemed to be clueless on how to manage his career.
"David, I believe that you have the tools to be a successful
singer, but you have a lot to learn. As good as they seem, pickers
and drummers are a dime a dozen. This is a tough market that you
are in. I ain't promising anything, but I have some friends that
I am going to call on your behalf. I am going to tell them what
I think you need. I can't even promise that they'll meet with
you, but I will put in a good word."
David flashed his million dollar smile. "Thank you, Mr. Evans,
sir. I would like to come back and play, if you'll let me."
"That's fine by, David. Just call Sara sometime and set it
up."
Carl made some calls to some old buddies, who were more interested
in talking about the good old days than discussing new business.
Some of them agreed to look into David, though none seemed overly
eager.
"Well, Carl," one said. "You've been out for a
while. Five years is like fifty years in the music business. It
ain't that I don't trust your judgment, it's just that people
like a different kind of music today."
"Look, Reggie, I might be out of touch with the latest sound,
but I know what it is a man has to be made of to make it. This
kid's got it. He's got guts, Reggie. He's got guts, and looks
and talent."
Reggie paused. "Ok, Carl. For you, I'll look into him. It's
good to hear from you buddy. We miss you. We all do."
A couple months later Carl got a call from David. "Mr.
Evans, sir," David started, with desperation in his voice.
"Carl, call me Carl, son."
"Ok, Carl. I really need to talk some more. I am still having
trouble getting anybody's attention."
"Did anybody call you from Capitol?"
"Yeah they called. They wanted a demo. I sent them one and
I ain't heard back from them."
Carl cursed silently. He didn't know why he had called those buzzards.
They, like most record people, were spineless and couldn't be
trusted.
"When are you going to be back this way, David?" Carl
asked.
"We are playing the Mullet in . . ." David paused to
look at his calendar. ". . . ten days."
"Alright, son. We will talk then. Don't get discouraged.
These things take time."
"Ok. Thank you Mr. Eva-Carl." There was audible relief
in David's voice.
"Don't mention it. Just try not to worry too much. Remember,
the music is what's important. You take care of the music and
the music will take care of you."
Carl fumed after that conversation. It was partly because the
jerks at Capitol had just placated him, and not really taken his
recommendation seriously, and partly because he was starting to
care about David, and his career. He could feel the beast sucking
him back in. He really didn't want to get involved in country
music again. He felt like Superman trying to retire. He left the
industry without knowing, or caring about, the impact it would
have on the industry. Now he could see that he was successful
because he took care of people like David, people of integrity
and a desire to succeed. Carl had found people that the "big
dogs" had rejected and helped them believe in themselves.
"What did he have to lose?" he asked himself. Angel
was gone for good. This bar didn't need him around to be successful.
He wasn't ready to retire, not really. Country music had consumed
him so fully because he loved it so much.
He had been his own road manager for awhile. Other than that,
he hadn't really managed anybody in a hands-on way. He hadn't
made his mind up fully, but he could feel the workings of his
subconscious exciting him.
"Hell of a job today, son." Carl began as David sat
down at the table in a chair adjacent to him.
"Thank you, sir. I had fun. I always do." David replied.
"That's the key. Have fun and play your heart out. We can
take this a long way."
David looked up at Carl, surprise on his face. "We?"
David asked.
"David, I am going to make you an offer. I have thought about
this a great deal." Carl paused and looked down at his cup
of coffee. "The way I've got it figured, we need each other,
David. You need somebody to open some doors, and I need to get
off of my backside. I can't promise anything, but if you will
listen to me, I am willing to manage you."
"Mr. E-Carl, I don't know what to say to that. You know what
we make per show, I mean-"
"-Don't worry about the money. I don't need to be paid, not
until things get rolling at least. I just . . . . I ain't ready
to be done yet."
The two men sat silently digesting the conversation for a few
moments.
"We can talk more about the details on Monday. Well need
to hammer some things out, and sign some stuff. But I would like
to get started as soon as possible, if you are interested."
"Yes sir. I am interested. I will see you on Monday."
"Alright, David. Make it 10:00 a.m."
"10:00 a.m. sounds good to me. Just meet you here, in the
bar?"
"Yeah that's fine."
Carl lay in bed the next night trying to figure out why he had
said what he said. He was genuinely scared about what lay ahead.
He wasn't afraid to fail. He had learned to overcome that, years
ago. He was mostly afraid that he would succeed, and how that
would change him. Would he become the person he once was? Would
be become a workaholic who invested his entire life in his work?
Would he care? A part of him wanted to at least have something
to care for. He told himself that he was doing it mainly for David,
and people like him. Maybe if he told himself that enough, he
would believe it. Maybe.