One Long Summer
I didn't think that it was such a good idea, but they didn't care.
My brother, Rocky, sat on the hood of my cousin Hank's ten-year-old,
beige, Jeep Cherokee as he guided it slowly down Big Run Road.
Rocky laid his shotgun across the brace on his left knee and he
was looking keenly about.
We had spent the weekend fruitlessly hunting squirrel. Actually,
they alternated drinking and hunting. This could account for their
lack of success. I had no plans of being successful on my hunt.
I had absolutely no desire to kill anything, but I didn't let
on. I didn't want to let my brother know that I was weak.
Now, renewed by the last batch of beer, they had a new plan, to
take a shot, literally, at the mess of rabbits they had seen all
over the road when we came up the hollow. The problem was that
the rabbits were gone. I sat in the middle of the back seat watching,
expecting Rocky to fall off to his death. His left leg was already
a mess. He busted it when he fell off a truck at work. I imagined
him lying in a hospital bed with a brace, like the one on his
leg, covering his whole body. That's about the time it happened.
Hank saw this old red bone hound peeing on a fence post up ahead.
Hank slowly brought the old S.U.V. to a stop. Rocky looked back
through the windshield with a question on his face.
"Get in the truck, Rocky. We ain't goin' home empty handed."
Rocky followed Hank's gaze up the road to the dog and looked back
grinning. He slid off the hood and began to limp around to the
front passenger-side door. I didn't know what Hank had in mind
but I began to imagine. That old Red Bone hound had terrorized
this section of Big Run Road for years. Nothing went by without
being chased. Cars, trucks, terrified kids on bikes, and pedestrians
alike were chased. I thought Hank planned to drive up and simply
blow Old Red's brains out, but it was worse.
Rocky climbed in the truck and Hank slowly took off. He was driving
in the middle of the gravel-covered, black top road. The dog picked
him up immediately and began to growl. Rocky cackled aloud as
Old Red started running toward the vehicle. She was running along
side the jeep barking like crazy. Hank had his head out of the
driver's side window taunting her. He began to drift to the left
a little at a time until he was driving as close to the left hand
shoulder of the road as possible. He and Rocky were yelling at
the dog and taunting her, making her crazy. I didn't know what
the point was until Hank looked up and steered the car a little
bit to the left, just onto the shoulder. Bam! Old red smashed
head first into an old hickory tree growing at the edge of the
road. The collision was full speed. I looked back, out of the
back window, to see the dog flip in the air and land on her side,
and just lay there. Hank slammed on the brakes and he and Rocky
jumped out. They laughed hysterically and yelled like wild men.
That was probably the worst thing I had ever seen. My fear of
Rocky and Hank, bolstered by constant torture and abuse, just
doubled. I knew that they would kill anything. I was thirteen
but didn't think that I would see fourteen. They climbed back
into the truck and we headed home.
***
Summer was coming and I wasn't excited. It wasn't that I liked
school, but it was better than home. I lived with my 22-year-old
sister Gayle and our cousin Vera. To say that Gayle and I didn't
see eye-to-eye was to say that Israel and Palestine had some issues
to resolve. They wanted to cruise town (an obsession I never understood)
and mingle in the social politics of Fleming County's party crowd.
Gayle used to make me go because she thought I was too young to
leave at home. Now I was too big to ride in the floorboard of
her pickup truck, without being seen by her would-be suitors.
I still cannot see how Gayle saw those nights on the town as anything
but cruel and unusual punishment.
I clearly remember one such night, awhile back. The three of us
had gone out one Friday night. Gayle drove, Vera rode shotgun,
and I lay on the floorboard between. We had been riding around
for an hour, and I was complaining pretty heavily.
"Billy, just shut up ok? God! I am getting sick of hearing
it." Gayle barked.
"The floorboard is really hot, and it's burning my back."
I pleaded.
"You baby. You just don't want me and Vera to have any fun.
I work all week making money so you can eat. The least you could
do is just lay there and keep your mouth shut. I swear to God,
Billy. I don't get to do anything I want to do. Never!"
She was lying. Mom sent money for food, we lived in a house dad
had left me when he died. I got survivor's benefits from Daddy's
pension. The truth was, I took care of her.
I guess it was a combination of everything; the floorboard, the
music blaring through the door speakers into my ears, and Gayle's
attitude. I started crying.
"Billy, honey. What is it? What's wrong? You're being really
selfish, you know?" Gayle paused to let me feel bad. "Ok.
We'll go home. I don't know why I even try."
"I don't want to go home!" I yelled honestly. I really
didn't want to go home. I knew that if I caused us to go home
early I would never hear the end of it. She would make me feel
bad for the rest of my life. "I just don't feel good. It
stinks down here."
We didn't go home, but she still made me feel bad about complaining.
I still don't know how that works. I didn't know it then, but
I was learning basic politics. I d what I didn't want to do, so
I wouldn't have to do what I really didn't want to do.
The whole mess between Gayle and me came to a head when she threw
my birthday cake in the trash on my last birthday. I had simply
requested that she leave a part of the cake without icing, the
way I like it. It was a reasonable request since it was my birthday
cake. She responded to my apparent ungrateful attitude by throwing
the whole cake, pan and all, into the trash. I cried for about
two days, and then something in me snapped. I began to stand up
for myself, to her at least. This resulted in frequent battles,
sometimes involving melee. I just sort of steered clear of her
after that. But it would be harder in summer. She would begin
to make me do the chores that she didn't want to do, which was
all of them.
Her thought was that little brother was the same as personal lackey.
She got this idea from our older brother Rocky, who bullied everyone.
He lived with my uncle, Ellis, and all of his full-grown kids,
in a house about one hundred yards away from where we lived. Rocky
had been there since he started having some troubles in his marriage,
right after his accident at work. Rocky had made a slave of Gayle
growing up and now she intended to do the same with me. I had
other plans.
I planned to spend most days playing baseball with my friend Tracey,
whom everyone called "Peanut" because he was so short.
I knew that if I was out of the house by noon, I could go undetected
because Gayle and Vera were out late almost every night. I had
not figured out how I would eat. Food was scarce enough at home.
I really missed Mom. She had married a local fellow and moved
to Danville, Kentucky. They had taken my little sister Nicole
with them, and asked me to come, but I could not. I originally
hoped that by refusing to leave, they would stay, but they left
me to rot in Fleming County. It worked out for the best, I guess.
I got to stay with my school friends and focus on my schoolwork.
For some reason, my grades had been terrible since Dad died of
cancer a few years back. I don't think of him a lot really, so
I don't understand the connection. It's just that I don't focus
that well. And, to be honest, I don't really care. I do well on
the tests, but I can't bring myself to do homework. Maybe that
is because if I am home, Gayle will be riding me and I have no
place else to go.
I got up at 7:00 a.m. on the first day of summer break and slipped
out of the house. I took a couple of cinnamon twists I found in
the cabinet, and walked to the barn at the end of our road to
eat them. They were small and not very filling and I had nothing
to drink. I originally planned to wander around the barn until
nine thirty or ten o'clock, and then go get Peanut. But my gummy
breakfast had left me parched with my tongue sticking to the roof
of my mouth. I would have to make Peanut sneak me something to
drink, and something else to eat, from his house.
I started the two-mile walk to Peanut's house when my mind wandered.
I had spent every spare moment of the last two weeks thinking
about a girl that I had met. I had ridden the bus home from school
with my buddy Allen, with whom I planned to spend the night. That's
where I met Cindy. She was an eighth grader, a year behind me
in school. I can't say what had captivated me so. She was somewhat
plain looking, really. She had glasses and wore no makeup. Her
hair was pulled back in a ponytail. There was something about
her shyness that really touched me. She didn't talk like other
girls her age, who passed notes and clumped together to talk about
boys and whatever else girls talked about. Allen said that she
was really smart, but I could tell that just by talking to her.
She laughed at all of my jokes, which weren't really that funny.
I had only met her once, but I couldn't stop thinking about that
bus ride. It was surreal, like a dream that really happened.
I felt stupid for fantasizing about her. Boys my age should be
daydreaming about girls that they have no chance of dating. I
didn't know why I was so sprung on her. Aside from an exceptional
pair of breasts, nothing really stood out about the way Cindy
looked.
I snapped out of my trance to find that I was more than halfway
to Peanut's house and already walking on the highway. This was
actually a dangerous part of the trip. People flew on this road.
There was really no place to walk except in the ditch or on someone
else's property, and that was probably more dangerous than the
wild drivers were. People along Muses Road were paranoid, and
rightfully so. Sober drivers were in the minority, and people
who wouldn't steal from you were even scarcer. Most people kept
the doors locked all day and a cabinet full of loaded guns. It
was not uncommon to hear of someone being shot at, or even shot,
in the part of the country that I lived in.
I was walking through Old Man Hayes's yard when I saw Goose Hilterbrand
coming. He had a rusted 83' Chevy truck that was jacked up, and
had over-sized mud tires on it. It had straight pipes, instead
of a muffler, and a roll cage in the back. You could hear him
long before you could see him. It was a unique aural combination
of his twice-pipes roaring and beer bottles rolling around in
the bed of his truck as he swerved down the road.
Unfortunately, Goose looked in my direction at about the same
time that I saw him. His cousin Scotty, who rode shotgun with
him, began rolling down the window. I started running as fast
as I could, headed for the little shed up ahead. I could see Scotty,
his drunken torso totally hanging out of the passenger side window,
beer bottle in hand. As they got close, I decided to hit the deck.
I dove into a baseball slide; head first, onto the ground. I looked
up, when I heard the sound of glass smashing against metal, to
see the beer explode as it impacted the "No Passing Zone"
sign.
While I was relieved that I was not their target for assault today,
I was a bit dismayed about having to dig grass out of my shoes,
hair and clothes all day. I guess it is better to itch from diving
into the glass, than to take a beer bottle to the head.
I picked myself up and continued on my way. I still didn't know
what I was going to do this summer. If I don't do anything, I
could spend my summer thinking about Cindy. I don't want to do
that. "Maybe Peanut can think of something to do." I
told myself.
I finally got to Peanut's house. I was in luck. Peanut's Mom had
made some breakfast, and I got to eat with her and Peanut. We
had eggs, bacon and pancakes. It was awesome, but it made me miss
my mom more. I hadn't eaten a home cooked breakfast for a long
time.
We finished eating and I helped Peanut's mom, Elaina was her name,
clean up. Peanut never really liked to help his mom do anything,
but I didn't mind. I always thought that he should be glad that
he lived with his mom, but I never told him that. Peanut and his
mom were from Washington D.C., and they didn't really fit in Fleming
County. His real dad had divorced his mom, and she and Peanut
moved to Kentucky when she remarried.
I was interested in D.C., especially after Peanut told me so much
about it. He was kind of a wild kid, but he said that all kids
in D.C. were like him. Things that he did for fun in D.C.; shoplifting,
keying cars and stealing mail, would get him seriously incarcerated
here.
I liked hanging around him because we were both outcasts. He was
made fun of because of his accent, and how he carried himself.
I was taunted because I didn't fit into the redneck mold, and
I was a preppy kid. Those were the two distinct factions at my
school; rich kid and Ag boy. Peanut and I fit into neither group.
I also liked Peanut because he was a little dangerous.
My mother was raised in a time and place where you were poor and
polite. She raised me with those same principles. I was taught
to say, "Yes sir" and "thank you", every since
I could remember. I always tried to be considerate of others,
and think about how others first. Peanut wasn't that way. A part
of me liked that about him.
"Well, Billy," Peanut began. "What are we going
to do today?"
"I don't know. I have been trying to figure out what we can
do this summer. You got any ideas?"
"No. I guess we could ride bikes, play baseball and stuff."
"Yeah." I conceited. "Maybe we could play Sega."
"Maybe. Just not today. Mom is on this big kick. She is trying
to keep me out of the house. We can do that some, though."
We walked outside and sat in the dirt by his basketball goal.
We just sat there, quietly for a few minutes. Finally, Peanut
got up and started to shoot ball. I didn't understand how he played
basketball, or walked for that matter. His clothes were all so
baggy. Everything he wore was at least four sizes to big. I didn't
ask him about it. I guess that is how kids in D.C. dressed.
"We could steal a car." Peanut offered.
"Would that be to do for today, or the whole summer?"
"Either or."
I dipped my head and looked at him from under my brow, as if to
say, "You've got to joking."
Peanut agreed that stealing a car was a bad idea, but he had no
others. We heard Goose's truck coming from about a mile away.
"Great, hear comes Goose again."
"Again?" Peanut asked.
"Yeah, again. Pot head nearly killed me today."
"Him and the retarded cousin of his."
We saw him fly by straddling the yellow line. He had apparently
taken Scotty home, because his truck was covered in the famous
Fleming County clay. Muses Road was in the valley, and was always
wet. The mud on Goose's truck gave me an idea. One thing that
bothered me about where I lived was the dirty vehicles. Every
vehicle that I saw was dirty, to some degree.
"What? Whose car? What, what are you talking about?"
"We could take your four-wheeler up and down Muses, offering
to wash people's cars. We could charge like . . . $3.00, so it's
cheaper than in town. We can hook your wagon up haul water from
Mom's house. We have a well so the water wouldn't cost anything."
"I don't know. Knowing George, we would have to give him
a cut for letting us use his equipment. He actually takes a dollar
out of what he pays me to cut the grass, for use of 'his' equipment."
"So, we could give him a cut. Who cares? It would give us
something to do this summer. We could make some money. It is going
to be hotter that Hell this summer. What would be better than
wet all day?"
"I can think of a bunch of things."
"Look, go ask your step-dad. Let's just try it."
"Okay, I'll ask. But he can be a dick when he wants to be."
George thought that we had a good idea, and was glad to loan us
his air compressor, for a small cut. He thought it was very industrious
of us to want to do something productive with out summer.
The idea was a big hit. Most people couldn't afford to have their
car washed every week, almost everyone needed something washed
at least once. While we washed two tractors to every car, we made
about $300 each that summer. People in that neighborhood obviously
cared more for their farm equipment than their automobiles. The
two were one in the same for some folks.
Gayle didn't find out about my little business venture, or else
she would have gotten a cut as well. The summer passed with only
moderate trouble out of my sister, and a modest amount of time
thinking about Cindy. Maybe I would look her up when she got to
high school next year.