God Is Not Speaking To Me....
Since Mark died(God Bless You Brother Mark!) I haven't been hearing God speak to me anymore...Me and God used to have long hard conversations, ALL of the time! I would yell at him, he would yell back,I would cry and he would comfort me. But after I heard that mark had died, I sat in my room and cried to god, asking him what we could have done... He did not comfort me like he usually did.
I was totally alone that day.
So I stopped talking to God and started talking to Mark, I had a feeling that he was listening to me. It hurts me to think that God is giving me the silent treatment, that's what it feels like anyway. I know that God loves me, but right now I can't hear his advice. Like Amy had said on her & Marks blog "God is silent to me." I feel as if I have done something wrong, said something he didn't want to hear, so he is teaching me a lesson by not speaking to me for a while.
I don't know...
God Bless You Elpida!
++God be with me this day, though I can not hear you...
I can feel you, Always. In Jesus Name I Pray... Amen++
-Meaghan-
I was totally alone that day.
So I stopped talking to God and started talking to Mark, I had a feeling that he was listening to me. It hurts me to think that God is giving me the silent treatment, that's what it feels like anyway. I know that God loves me, but right now I can't hear his advice. Like Amy had said on her & Marks blog "God is silent to me." I feel as if I have done something wrong, said something he didn't want to hear, so he is teaching me a lesson by not speaking to me for a while.
I don't know...
God Bless You Elpida!
++God be with me this day, though I can not hear you...
I can feel you, Always. In Jesus Name I Pray... Amen++
-Meaghan-
3 Comments:
That's very honest stuff Meagh. Let me tell you a secret: It's OK not to "hear Him" talk to you. You said and you already know, He's always there, always loving you, always working to transform you and all of us. Sometimes that work is silent work. Most of the time it has to do with us and not Him. But you're fine. Keep praying. God is always listening. I love you.
Talking with other Christians who know what you are going through, have gone through themselves, helps too. That is why we are ALL the body of Christ. WE ALL work together and help each other. I know that can be hard for you but it really does help. I know - been there done that. I love you meagh.
Even David (that other poet, and slingshot enthusiast) went thru that as well ...oh - we all do ...
and I agree - it is right to be honest about your thoughts on the matter ... If nothing else, it is good to know you dont go though the questions alone...
mercy on you: this is a greiving season ....
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