Isolation & Distance... Makes The Heart Just Bleed For Attention.

As it says in the title of my Blog, welcome to the world of an emotional 15 year old girl.
She has best friends, the young man that you see to the left... Is one of her very best.
Chad Runnyan, born January 22, 1991.... Same day as me. Our birthday is coming up and I am missing him terribly, I guess I should tell you the story of what happened to my friend not to long ago.

November 2006, I can't remember the exact date.... But I'll never forget that morning, ever. It was an A day, and we stand outside in the mornings but Chad wasn't there... So the bell rang and I still hadn't even seen him, me & my friend Heather walked to first hour, Biology with Ms. Weger [[Thank you Ms. Weger]] We got in the class room and our friend Jessica ran up and asked if we head heard what Chad did... Apparently not. So, I hesitantly asked her what happened.... Mistake I guess. My friend.... My BEST friend, had taken 40 aspirin, and about 15-20 other different pills. He wasn't in to good of a shape that morning. I grabbed my planner and ran to Heather and said "Go and find him, and if he isn't okay..... Call the hospital and then call me & I'll be there in a heart beat." Because I didn't want to be the one to find him laying on the floor somewhere... I couldn't. She went to the counseling office, he was sitting there with his face in his hands. He said he was okay, he smiled and said he was fine.... I hated him for that. Heather came back and told me & Ms. Weger what happened and we talked until the bell rung. I was walking to second hour, my friend Gaige stopped me & asked if I had heard, "Heard what?" & he said it.... They had taken Chad away in an ambulance. I cried, I fell to me knees and cried because I thought that I was going to lose my very best friend that day, and all I could think about was that if he died that day... A big part of me would die with him. I found out later that my friend Whitney had found him, she told me the story and I cried again...
They were walking, and she said he looked so pale. They got to a door the lead outside and he said "Let's go out this door," And she asked why, all he said was, "Let's just go..." They got out the door and he fell to his knees and threw up, she said that he threw up whole pills... So she called the ambulance and he was taken to the hospital. His parents out him into Charter Ridge, the local "nut house" as people say.... And I haven't even spoken to my best friend since then. I haven't heard ANYTHING, I haven't seen him... Nothing. And it's killing me, I pray every chance I get that I will see him soon, that I will hear from him, something... Anything. But it hasn't happened yet and I hate it. So my world has been emo to the extremo as of late.
So there's the sitch.

Pray for my friend, pray for him so that he will be okay... So that he can come home, please.

With love
Meaghan

Too Cool For School... HAHA! I Wish!

So yeah... I'm back in school, Sophomore!!! Oh yeah. But yeah, I'm like the most popular girl in school! Haha.. Right, not but for real. I love school, yes that is quite odd for a 15 year old to say, normally it's, "GOSH! I hate school!" But not for me! I went all summer long without seeing a soul, well except for Becca & Annalise... & people at the barn who I LOVE! But anyway, school is going well, no hard classes, it's all good. Here's a list of all my classes for those of you who care:

A1: Biology w/ Ms. Weger[[Not a big fan of her's]]
I love science, and I'm pretty good at it too. But this is one of my main focus' in school, seeing as I'm gonna be a Wild Life Biologist.

A2: Spanish-2 w/ Mrs. Nicholson
I love Spanish, it is one of my favorite classes, mostly because my teacher is awesome! [[My dad is in love with her HAHA!]]

A3: Algebra 1 Part 2 w/ Mrs. Brodbeck
Last year I HATED Algebra with a passion, but this year I actually like it! My teacher is cool too.

A4: World Civ. w/ Mrs. Toy [[Haha]]
Yeah, I like this class & Mrs. Toy is pretty sweet!

B1: Foods w/ Mrs. Alley
Love this class, I get to cook & EAT IT TOO!

B2: English 2 w/ Ms. Lamb
I love this class, Ms. Lamb is the bomb! She is one of my favorite teachers.

B3: Advanced Shakespear w/ Mrs. Boss
I love this class too, cause I have KATEY in my class with me! Haha, we sit next to eachother and I bug the crap out of her. Mrs. Boss is pretty cool too.

B4: Health w/ Mrs. Hughley
One of my favorite classes also, we hardly do anything in this class & my teacher is pretty cool, right now she's having her baby. But its pretty cool, she is the pimpiest haha.


But yeah, thata what I do every day haha. Anyway, I gotta go do homework cause I'm cool like that!

+Meaghan+

He's My Favorite <3

So I spent two days & one night with my favorite boy in the world this week
My cousin John... I love him.

He is my best friend I swear it, we only see eachother once a year but it's worth the 2 & a half hour trip to virginia to see him. I was so excited, and aparently so was he. When I got there he wasn't home, him and his dad [[Kenith Lee]] went to rent some movies, so I waited. I got to see my cousin Amber's two beautiful baby girls, Morgan & Lilly. They are the cutest! But I just wanted John to get there :( So as I was sitting in the kitchen, I hear the door open... John? NO! My great uncle Berry, he's crazy and annoying. But anyway, after sitting and dealing with my uncle Berry's tormenting for about 10 minutes, here comes John. I turn around and there is this tall, muscular, long haired Emo boy walking towards me... John. I was shocked, I hadn't seen him in two years because last year I couldn't come. He sat up on the counter and just smiled at me, then went up stairs to play his guitar with my brother, when he came back down I was walking up to see him... He met me half way and finally said hi and hugged me.

I love my cousin with everything in me, he is honestly my favorite person in the world. He always makes me smile & we always have things to talk about & so many things in common. We talked all day about how the past two years had gone, he had been feeling bad for not calling me when I broke my arm... I told him it was fine, I had already forgotten about it anyway. So I taught him some guitar chords, he has two electric guitars & we "Jammed" together haha. We also beat my brother up then kicked him out of the room so that we could listen to loud music and talk about everything... We do that a lot. Later that night we stayed up until 2 AM watching movies... Well, he did. I fell asleep and he laughed at me. He slept on the couch, being a good little cousin and giving me and my older sister Katey his room. The next morning I woke up at 11, i figured he would be up seeing as he had to be at Freshmen orientation at his High school at 1... But no, he was asleep face down on the couch. My great aunt Patsey [[His mamaw]] never could wake him up in the morning, so when I was there it was my job. So I walked up to the couch and began to poke him sharply in the back saying, "John, wake up! John wake up! JOHN WAKE UP!" Then I began to hum and sing "Wake up John, wake up John, Wake up John! Or I will sit on you!" And when he did not wake up... Or so I thought. I sat on his back. I laughed and started to bounce on him asking him if he could breath, and I knew he was awake because every time i asked him he would take a deep breath.

I got frustrated when he didn't get up and pulled his hair... Nothing. So my mamaw told me to get a wet paper towel and dribble cold water on his back, I did... It wasn't cold enough. After shaking and beating on him for about a half hour he started laughing and turned over, "I was awake the whole time!" he said, I dropped my jaw and punched him in the arm. Funny stuff. I'll have to get pictures on here soon from our adventures. When he got home from his little thing at the high school, he got his skate board and we went outside. He skated & i watched. He fell once and busted his... Well lets just say the board hit him where it hurt. He was rolling on the ground and almost threw up so I finally walked over, trying to hold back my laughter and asked if he was ok... We sat there for a while just laughing.

Gosh... I miss him terribly. He is supposed to come and stay with me for a week this fall, I can't wait for that. And next summer I will be seeing him twice, once on my trip to virginia then he will be coming back with us to go to the Warped tour in Cincannati. Anyway, you all are probably tired of hearing about my adventures. But I like to brag about my pretty
& awesome cousin!

Pictures to come!

+Meaghen+

AFI = Beauty

My song for the day, The Killing Lights by: AFI:

Oh
Five A.M. on the bathroom floor
from the night before,
do you find me dreadful?
What a shame such a sad disgrace.
Such a pretty face
but she's not regretful.

Am I beautiful?
Am I usable?

It's killing time again (killing time again).
Put on your face and let's pretend,
these killing lights won't kill us all again.

Three A.M. on the city street,
when the air is sweet,
I've had my mouth full
but it seems that outside the screen
such a pretty face
often will look dreadful, oh.

Am I beautiful?
Am I usable?

It's killing time again (killing time again).
Put on your face and let's pretend,
these killing lights won't kill us all again.

It's killing time again (killing time again).
Cover your face and we'll pretend,
these killing lights can't kill us all again.

You see they always remember.
They never forget a face
when they cut cut cut cut cut cut cut you up,
cut cut cut cut. They remember.
Cut cut cut cut cut cut cut you up,
cut you up.

It's killing time again (killing time again).
Put on your face and let's pretend,
these killing lights won't kill us all again.

It's killing time again (killing time again).
Cover your face and we'll pretend,
these killing lights can't kill us all again.

All again.
All again.
It's time again.
It's killing time.

The Warped Tour.

Wow... I am still in shock from yesterday. We saw Anti-Flag, Hellogoodbye, Motion City Sound Track, Rise Against, AFI <3,>

I'm Such A Punk!

Those are my PIMP shoes, I just bought those shoe laces at Hottopic. They say "I <3 Skater Boys" & I love them! Mostly because I do <3 skater boys haha! But anyway, i just thought i would share that with you... Here my song for the day:

You've Made Us Concious
by: The Audition

We are the leaders and the preachers
teaching you what is right from wrong.
And even if a hint of nonsense has made us clearly conscious,
We'll be the first ones to act, be the first ones to act in.

Tick-tock on the clock and a knock at the...

Oh oh oh - look at what we've all tried not to become:
another fabricated self-portrait.
Oh oh no - take another glance and remember we're the ones
Setting you up to take our fall.

You are the so-called weak and reckless.
Waiting for the next big explosion,
No matter if it's wrong or right.
If we let you have this,
you'll be the first to destroy, be the first to destroy it.

Tick-tock on the clock and a knock at the...

Oh oh oh - look at what we've all tried not to become:
another fabricated self-portrait.
Oh oh no - take another glance and remember we're the ones
Setting you up to take our fall.

The simple ways we roll our eyes
are exactly how we disguise our secrets.
You know you need this.

The simple ways we roll our eyes
are exactly how we disguise our secrets.
You know you need this.

Tick-tock on the clock and a knock at the...
Tick-tock on the clock and a knock at the...

Oh oh oh - look at what we've all tried not to become:
another fabricated self-portrait.
Oh oh no - take another glance and remember we're the ones
Setting you up to take our fall.

The Tour.

Two years ago my mother & I embarked on a "Most excelent adventure", yes thats right, we went to the Warped Tour '04. The most exciting thing ever! I got to see my favorite band [Good Charlotte] In person, wow. & I MET one of my favorite bands [Sugarcult], the lead singer, Tim, he's full of himself. But anyway, this month my sister Katey, my mother & I will be going on that same adventure... Just different bands. AFI being one of them, I am excited!