Music Wakes The Soul + But Sisters Make You Cry

I am sitting here listening to the Goo-Goo Dolls
They inspire me, the words they put together just amaze me.
I am a big music fanatic
I listen to everything from Eminem to Ozzy to Elvis and Jonny Cash
It wakes my soul...

I think my life might just be a big pile of crap,
Without music to keep me company.
Some songs just say exzactaly what is on my mind and everything I can't say...
I wish I was that gifted.

I noticed that I seem to be writing in "Poetry form"
I guess I just "like to tell my stories in statements"
Thats what some of my friends tell me anyway
I guess I'm good at poetry
Thats what my English teacher told me...
She said my poems ment something to her,
Surprising.

I never thought I would ammount to anything in poetry...
Katey always tells me I suck
But then again she tells me I suck at everything...
The one person I want to impress the most
And she thinks I suck

So I don't really try sometimes
Just so she wont make fun of me anymore
It hurts sometimes...
I just wish for once she could actually be happy for me
And not in a scarcastic way either.

I have friends who are more happy for me than my own sister
Thats sad...
But oh well, I guess she doesn't really care anyways.


Well I have to go learn myself some more guitar chords
hah!
Oh wait, I suck at it so maybe I shouldn't....


-Meaghan-

Dilemmas I Don't Want To Solve

I Feel that my faith is slipping from me...
Not quite sure why or how,
But I just feel like I am slipping away from God,
Falling from his grace and into the darkness of not wanting to know what's out there.
I was in science class this year, and our teacher taught us things I really never waned to hear.

I have a tremendous fear of Death...
And I think it's because I don't know whats after this.
We all want to believe that there is a Heaven, a Hell
A God... But what happens if there isn't? And all these years we where praising the empty sky.
I don't like to think about it.
I know this is just me going through my questioning fase of life
I amd a "Confused Teen"
My brain doesn't work "Propperly"

I like to think that I have Deep thoughts
I can be a deep person if I feel like pushing myself into that position
I am normally that when I am helping a friend with a problem
I listen, when others wont
I actually HEAR what they are saying, unlike their parents
I understand because I am in their position as well.
But when I am talking to someone about God,
I start to shake and... It's just weird and un comfortable for me sometimes.

Anyway, I just had to get this stuff out there. Comment if you want.
God be with you all.

+Meaghan+

Just Random

Whats up my people? All good things I hope.
It's been a while I guess, I had a little streak of posts back in April or something and just fell out of it I guess. Well, only 2 days left in school, THANK GOD! In some ways I really don't wanna get out though cause I probably wont see any of my friends over the summer at all! Which is complete crap! But oh well.
So, I've just been getting hurt up and down this week. I fell off a horse tuesday(4th time EVER!!! WOOT!) I fell off a pony last night, funny. I got hit in the stomach with a sharp metle stall latch last night too, ouch! And now I have a crok in my neck! But I'm assuming nobody cares about this stuff. Blogger isn't really a journal for you to post what happened to you that day, it's mor like a thing to post you poetry or something...
But anyway, I gotta go. Church is happening soon, so... Talk to you soon.

-Meaghan-
(Mini Creecher)