Alright, I'm tired of dealing with life. If i weren't such a coward I wouldn't be here right now, but I am so I have to dael with it. This may seem really selfish, and I hate that I'm thinking this way but I'm tired of hearing and dealing with everybody elses problems. See, I have this friend that has some problems and she tells me about them all the time, and I like to help her and comfort her but not every day. I mean for just one day I wish that it could be a litle bit about me. Not like hanging on my every word but just paying attention to me and not leaving me out of anything. And like I said before I know this probably sounds really really selfish but I'm tired of it. well enough of my ranting s***, here's another piece of mine called Who I Really Am:

Ever since i came here I've hidden who I really am.
The one that they would pick out of a crowd.
But now I'm tired of putting on this mask, I want
to be myself again. I don't want to try to be calm or
cool anymore.
Cuz my hinges are coming undone and I'm losing
control. I better start now before someone gets hurt,
and I know they will.

Well now i gotta go sleepy bye so I'll post ya'll later. :) Oh, ooh, wait, I have a buffy quote for you, here: Quote:buffy: "What did you take?" amy: "It's basil, I swear".
Did you get it? Well if you didn't thats ok, but if yuo did then wasn't that funny? Ok, really gotta go now, see ya. :)

Hey people, just thought that I would post a bit while I'm on the computer. Today I'm gonna talk about the monologue that I'm doing in my drama class. It's called My Death. I know, I know and it's not what you think, here I'll let you see for yourself.

I died last night. No, I did, really. I am dead. It was wierd, dying I mean. I've never died before. It was scary, but not as scary as you'd think. At first is was, but after i decidedto take the eternal plunge I was so full of energy. I felt like the Energizer Bunny. it was so exhilarating. That's strange, huh? I used to wonder what happened when you died. I mean do you just die and cease to exist, or do you have a soul? If you do have a soul, where do you go? Is there a heaven and a hell? Well, now I know the answer. There is life after death and there is a heaven and a hell. You might be wondering how I died. It was really gruesom and painful. It was the worst way a person could die. I died on a croos, with a man named Jesus. You see it wasn't a physical death I died last night. It was a spiritual death. I placed all my sin on Jesus and He washed my soul clean. I had never felt so pure or high or peacefuland calm or WHOLE. Jesus filled this emptiness inside me. If you haven't died yet you feel what I'm talking about. It's like this big black emptiness that consumes you. Consumes your life. You're depressed and morbid. But you don't want to say that you're depressed because depressed people are losers who have no control of thier life. I used to be so morbid that my motto was 'everyone was born to die' or 'once you're born, you start dying'. It's still my motto, but now the meaning has changed. I believe that once we are born our lives start to lead us to die in Christ. I guess you'd have to die to know what I mean. I suggest you try it. It will be the best decision you'll ever make. I guarantee it.

Well now I gotta go, "BYE".

Hey people, guess what? Pretty soon I'm gonna get comments on here and then ya'll can tell me what you think of my stuff.:) Won't that be cool? Well anyway, I also might put some pictures on here too, so now for another piece of art, lol. This one's a little "lighter", it's called THE MORNING AFTER.

The morning after the sun went to bed on a crimson pillow.
The morning after the moon floated into a deep ocean sky.
The morning after crystal rain fell to the ground.
The morning after golden stars dropped down.
The morning after magic.

So, thats it. Well hows everybodys weekend been going? Mine's been going pretty well, I've been doin a lot of thinking about different things. Tomarrow I think I'm going to have a "my time" day. I'm just going to meditate and I'm gonna try not to talk a lot. I don't know if you can tell or not but I don't really like to TALK , I might like to type alot but not talk. We-he-hell, I've gotta go but I will post again.